Happiness - do you know how it feels? Can you sense the warmth as it wraps around you? Consumes your pain? Bringing you to happy days.
I cannot recall this emotion. Will I ever?
Two emotions dominate my mind.
Sadness. Sadness of what I’ve been through. What I’ve experienced. Lived through…barely.
The sadness has left visible marks on my body. Do they fade away? Eventually. But the emotional scars remain inevitably.
And anger. You cannot believe the anger I have experienced. Seen firsthand. Felt. And it has left its mark within me. There is no way to remove it….
I cannot fight anger. I am as powerless as you think you are.
How nice would it be - to smile and mean it. I cannot retain the feeling of happiness. It is a façade. I wish I could do it….I cannot.
How can I love when I do not love myself? It isn’t possible.
I am the worst sort of person - a monster, almost. So many people deserve my respect, affection, caring. But I am unable to give it. I am completely apathetic towards life in general.
Can words describe me? Should you even try? I pray you not to. You will fall in a deeper hole than you thought there was.
You cannot escape my doom once you have entered….
I wish you the best.
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